i love my lil old man: May 2009

Friday, May 29, 2009

remember you this way



you let me see the world in a different form...
you showed me love can be of no boundary...
you set me little trap that caught me off-guard and 
chasing you round the house like police and thief...

i know you gave me all you can...
you gave me all your strength...
now its my turn to let you rest...
rest well my boy...cos you be set for another mission soon...

i really hope to see you soon...
seeing you as my child...
looking into your eyes....
and carrying you the way i always do....


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

my one true love. I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH

As a 3 months puppy, you came to me...
Redhill was your first home...and the balcony was your coldcot..
Seeing you following the tail of SPIN wherever she goes.
She sleeps in the room and you at the Balcony.
with only newspaper and a bowl of water.
I DECIDED TO TAKE YOU HOME WITH ME.

we met the second time at the Animal Clinic at Sunset Way when you had your first jab (Vaccination).
that was the first time T-HWA carried you and she cant wait to get you off her arms...
SHE DISLIKE DOGS..
I had you held in my arms and try to give you as much warmth as I can to let u know...
I WILL LOVE YOU...DO NOT WORRY...
I always sing: HOW MUCH IS THAT DOGGY AT THE WINDOW....and i input your name inside..HOW MUCH IS THAT ODIE AT THE WINDOW..you alw stood that and listen...

T-HWA and myself were thinking of a name for you...i tot of TIM SUM and BOBBY (i used to like bob dog) and T-HWA tot of TWISTER...OREO and finally we decided to name you ODIE...a friend of GARFIELD and you have that little old man look with a ever-ready to smile puppy face.

you went up to TEBAN for the first time and trying to find a comfy spot...
there you go....decided to have your little "kennel" underneath the ikea armchair...
i got you a harness but you cant walk....you slide with 4 on the ground...
i got you another collar and pull you up...FINALLY...you made your first step...

for weeks i had never hear u bark....and i tot..
"OMG..odie is mute..he cant speak/bark"
suddenly a stranger came and you BARK SO LOUD..
YOU GAVE ME A SHOCK...

from till i know...you have make this your home...your territory...
from till on..i know you started to have feelings for us and wanting to protect us all the time...

you plantied bomb around the house in the middle of the night...
and i always fall into your trap...urgh...
you always have that guilty face when you did sometime wrong..and make me like a inspector...
searching for what you have done wrong.
time after time....i know T-HWA is now in love with you too....

you are everything to her...
the T-Hwa i know...dislike dogs..but she love you so much...

We spent many weekends heading out together....
BEACHES..PARKS...DOG GATHERING...i know you loved it..

you swim like a whale in the sea...
you run like a horse..with your nose against the strong wind...
you sniff like a cisco dog...
you bark at stronger like a lion...
you eat like a pig...
and you drink like a lizard..sticking your tongue out...
you finally reveal your trueself...and i know we are one true family...

you are my santa dog...
you are my cai shen ye...
you are a hip hop dancer..
you are a army soldier..
you have all kinds of fancy outfit, letting me dress you in and out...
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU...

time after time...i knew i had stopped spending as much time with you...
and you are MAD...you mess up the house...
pee on my bed...and poo all over the floor...
letting me know i did sometime wrong...
I WAS ANGRY and FRUSTRATED..coming home seeing it so messy and hit you on the butt...
but you forgive me...I realised my mistake and took you out that weekend.

your birthday came and I ordered so much food for you...
BIRTHDAY CAKE...
PIZZA...
COOKIES...
PASTA...
again you ate like a pig...but im glad to see you happily munching away...

you fart for the first time and i tot was KOR KOR....
we den realised your fart stinks..whahaha
you had wet dreams and i saw your embarrass look...
i know you are pai seh....you must be dreaming of some sexy babes i hope...and not hunks..

as years go by...i spent lesser and lesser time with you....
IM REALLY SORRIE....

you had dirty teeth and smelling breath..we took you for scaling..
you went for your teeth scaling and had to stay in the clinic, being caged up...I KNOW U HATE THAT...
we took you home and you looked angry....

you had your first fit and edward was scared, crying and calling me to rush home and telling me on the phone, 
"odie had a heart attack, come home...he is dying"

I was LOST and not sure wat to do...
i dash home..and saw you looking blur...
you went for your first checkup and blood test...

everything came out well...and not sure why the fit reacted...
doctor say might be inherit or unknown...
you hate taking medicine and you always spit it out without us knowing....
NOTTI BOY...

years had passed and fit became part and parcel of your life...
IM SORRY FOR NOT SEEKING FOR MORE HELP WHEN YOU WERE IN PAIN....
i tot it for granted that nothing will go wrong....

finally this year i took you to a friend..
have you checked and got you medicine....
you skipped the fit one month after another...
i was really happy...and we stopped the medicine to see if you will be better...

IM SORRIE..you did not...and become a little unstable...
we monitor and when you were better..again we tot you are fine...
i went to see you and you shared my fried chicken with you...
staring at me asking for more....
i cant control but fed you more and more....

on thursday...21st may...you throw your temper...flipping you waterbowl...and did not want to eat...
we are not sure what wrong with you and tot you are being naughty...
you bite the shoes and knob...we tot was weird but didnt suspect anything....

you walked and fall....T-HWA tot a fit is coming...and inject the serum into your anus...
you became a little weak..we tot you were tired....and you fall asleep....
T-HWA place you on your cushion and cover your eyes and let you have a good rest...

this rest seems forever...
at 4.30AM - i received a msg..."odie is in coma"
i got a shock and rush down...
you did not welcome me at the door..and i know something is wrong...

your eyes were open and you did not move since 10.30pm the night before...
i rush you to the hospital this time....
you poo and pee without control and my heart beat faster and faster...
i know something is wrong..but i hope not...

the doctor came and tell me you are in a very bad condition...
your brain is swell and you are brain dead....
she inject a medicine to reduce the swell...but does not work...

IM REALLY LOST THIS TIME....they ask us to go for a coffee as they need to rush some test...
we had our quick breakfast and I cant wait to head back to see you...
I went in and have the caged you hate opened...
we were all there....i stroked you and you moved....
i dont know if i should be happy or sad...cos im scared.....
YOU DROPPED YOUR BREATHE.

the doctor resuscitated you and you caught your breathe....
I REALLY PANIC NOW....
they have you transfer to the clinic and we acc you there all the way...
things seems to get worse...you lost you breathe once again and again..and your heart stopped once twice and thrice...i really hope there is miracle to have you back in my arms...fourth time you lost your breathe....

this time...they cant get you back....
you stopped you heartbeat at 2.50 on the 22nd may 2009...

tears keep rolling down and im really lost...
you are like a son to me...from a baby till you are 6...
i carry you in my arms to the quiet and cold room...with blood flowing from your mouth..nose and your anus...
the sky had dropped on me...

i alw avoid combing your hair but now i can only comb for the last time...
i alw avoid clearing your eye shit...but now i miss cleaning it....
i only stroke you once in awhile...but now i miss your lick..hug...and touch....
i know you be gone forever and i have to let you go...
counting down the hours i can left spending with you....
i alw tot that there is tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow...
for you...there is no more tomorrow...

now i know...you threw those temper to tell us you are unwell...
but we didnt catch you hint...
WE ARE SORRY ZAI....really sorrie...

24th May...we brought your clothes and your toys as well as your treats...
we dressed you up..and gave you all we can...
with the holy water to clean you up...

clean your eyes to let you see the path ahead...
clean your nose to let you sniff and smell..hunting for good food..
clean your ears to get rid of the ear infection you have..
clean your hands and legs to give you stronger bones and let you walk further and longer...
clean your heads to reduce your swell and get rid of the fit...
all we can do is pray for you...

all these year....you have been our angel...waiting for us..
waiting for us to reach home...
waiting for us to take you for your stroll...
waiting for us to cook for you....
waiting for us to bath you..
waiting for us to play with you...
waiting for weekends to come...
waiting for u to bring you out....
until this day....you are waiting for us to return from coffee before you dropped your breathe...
thank you boy....thanks for waiting for us....
you are a great warrior....

now...i have to say goodbye...
i believe god have another mission for you...
you are surely an angel god had gave to me...
and you are the best thing god can ever give me....

25th May..i collected your urn...and brought u home...
you are back home once again safe and sound.

R.I.P my boy...odie...heartzai...precious...#1 fav...CEO...
I LOVE YOU FOREVER....
you are my one true love....

thank you for being ours and thank you for all the mischievous acts you did...
thank you for being a good dog...thank you for everything....
today is your 7th day....
please come home...i really miss you very much....

i had never missed someone so much...
i love you zai....i love you very much...