i love my lil old man

remember you this way

2009-05-29T18:05:00.005+08:00

you let me see the world in a different form...

you showed me love can be of no boundary...

you set me little trap that caught me off-guard and

chasing you round the house like police and thief...

i know you gave me all you can...

you gave me all your strength...

now its my turn to let you rest...

rest well my boy...cos you be set for another mission soon...

i really hope to see you soon...

seeing you as my child...

looking into your eyes....

and carrying you the way i always do....

my one true love. I LOVE HIM VERY MUCH

2009-05-26T19:34:00.007+08:00

As a 3 months puppy, you came to me...

Redhill was your first home...and the balcony was your coldcot..

Seeing you following the tail of SPIN wherever she goes.

She sleeps in the room and you at the Balcony.

with only newspaper and a bowl of water.

I DECIDED TO TAKE YOU HOME WITH ME.

we met the second time at the Animal Clinic at Sunset Way when you had your first jab (Vaccination).

that was the first time T-HWA carried you and she cant wait to get you off her arms...

SHE DISLIKE DOGS..

I had you held in my arms and try to give you as much warmth as I can to let u know...

I WILL LOVE YOU...DO NOT WORRY...

I always sing: HOW MUCH IS THAT DOGGY AT THE WINDOW....and i input your name inside..HOW MUCH IS THAT ODIE AT THE WINDOW..you alw stood that and listen...

T-HWA and myself were thinking of a name for you...i tot of TIM SUM and BOBBY (i used to like bob dog) and T-HWA tot of TWISTER...OREO and finally we decided to name you ODIE...a friend of GARFIELD and you have that little old man look with a ever-ready to smile puppy face.

you went up to TEBAN for the first time and trying to find a comfy spot...

there you go....decided to have your little "kennel" underneath the ikea armchair...

i got you a harness but you cant walk....you slide with 4 on the ground...

i got you another collar and pull you up...FINALLY...you made your first step...

for weeks i had never hear u bark....and i tot..

"OMG..odie is mute..he cant speak/bark"

suddenly a stranger came and you BARK SO LOUD..

YOU GAVE ME A SHOCK...

from till i know...you have make this your home...your territory...

from till on..i know you started to have feelings for us and wanting to protect us all the time...

you plantied bomb around the house in the middle of the night...

and i always fall into your trap...urgh...

you always have that guilty face when you did sometime wrong..and make me like a inspector...

searching for what you have done wrong.

time after time....i know T-HWA is now in love with you too....

you are everything to her...

the T-Hwa i know...dislike dogs..but she love you so much...

We spent many weekends heading out together....

BEACHES..PARKS...DOG GATHERING...i know you loved it..

you swim like a whale in the sea...

you run like a horse..with your nose against the strong wind...

you sniff like a cisco dog...

you bark at stronger like a lion...

you eat like a pig...

and you drink like a lizard..sticking your tongue out...

you finally reveal your trueself...and i know we are one true family...

you are my santa dog...

you are my cai shen ye...

you are a hip hop dancer..

you are a army soldier..

you have all kinds of fancy outfit, letting me dress you in and out...

I AM SO PROUD OF YOU...

time after time...i knew i had stopped spending as much time with you...

and you are MAD...you mess up the house...

pee on my bed...and poo all over the floor...

letting me know i did sometime wrong...

I WAS ANGRY and FRUSTRATED..coming home seeing it so messy and hit you on the butt...

but you forgive me...I realised my mistake and took you out that weekend.

your birthday came and I ordered so much food for you...

BIRTHDAY CAKE...

PIZZA...

COOKIES...

PASTA...

again you ate like a pig...but im glad to see you happily munching away...

you fart for the first time and i tot was KOR KOR....

we den realised your fart stinks..whahaha

you had wet dreams and i saw your embarrass look...

i know you are pai seh....you must be dreaming of some sexy babes i hope...and not hunks..

as years go by...i spent lesser and lesser time with you....

IM REALLY SORRIE....

you had dirty teeth and smelling breath..we took you for scaling..

you went for your teeth scaling and had to stay in the clinic, being caged up...I KNOW U HATE THAT...

we took you home and you looked angry....

you had your first fit and edward was scared, crying and calling me to rush home and telling me on the phone,

"odie had a heart attack, come home...he is dying"

I was LOST and not sure wat to do...

i dash home..and saw you looking blur...

you went for your first checkup and blood test...

everything came out well...and not sure why the fit reacted...

doctor say might be inherit or unknown...

you hate taking medicine and you always spit it out without us knowing....

NOTTI BOY...

years had passed and fit became part and parcel of your life...

IM SORRY FOR NOT SEEKING FOR MORE HELP WHEN YOU WERE IN PAIN....

i tot it for granted that nothing will go wrong....

finally this year i took you to a friend..

have you checked and got you medicine....

you skipped the fit one month after another...

i was really happy...and we stopped the medicine to see if you will be better...

IM SORRIE..you did not...and become a little unstable...

we monitor and when you were better..again we tot you are fine...

i went to see you and you shared my fried chicken with you...

staring at me asking for more....

i cant control but fed you more and more....

on thursday...21st may...you throw your temper...flipping you waterbowl...and did not want to eat...

we are not sure what wrong with you and tot you are being naughty...

you bite the shoes and knob...we tot was weird but didnt suspect anything....

you walked and fall....T-HWA tot a fit is coming...and inject the serum into your anus...

you became a little weak..we tot you were tired....and you fall asleep....

T-HWA place you on your cushion and cover your eyes and let you have a good rest...

this rest seems forever...

at 4.30AM - i received a msg..."odie is in coma"

i got a shock and rush down...

you did not welcome me at the door..and i know something is wrong...

your eyes were open and you did not move since 10.30pm the night before...

i rush you to the hospital this time....

you poo and pee without control and my heart beat faster and faster...

i know something is wrong..but i hope not...

the doctor came and tell me you are in a very bad condition...

your brain is swell and you are brain dead....

she inject a medicine to reduce the swell...but does not work...

IM REALLY LOST THIS TIME....they ask us to go for a coffee as they need to rush some test...

we had our quick breakfast and I cant wait to head back to see you...

I went in and have the caged you hate opened...

we were all there....i stroked you and you moved....

i dont know if i should be happy or sad...cos im scared.....

YOU DROPPED YOUR BREATHE.

the doctor resuscitated you and you caught your breathe....

I REALLY PANIC NOW....

they have you transfer to the clinic and we acc you there all the way...

things seems to get worse...you lost you breathe once again and again..and your heart stopped once twice and thrice...i really hope there is miracle to have you back in my arms...fourth time you lost your breathe....

this time...they cant get you back....

you stopped you heartbeat at 2.50 on the 22nd may 2009...

tears keep rolling down and im really lost...

you are like a son to me...from a baby till you are 6...

i carry you in my arms to the quiet and cold room...with blood flowing from your mouth..nose and your anus...

the sky had dropped on me...

i alw avoid combing your hair but now i can only comb for the last time...

i alw avoid clearing your eye shit...but now i miss cleaning it....

i only stroke you once in awhile...but now i miss your lick..hug...and touch....

i know you be gone forever and i have to let you go...

counting down the hours i can left spending with you....

i alw tot that there is tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow...

for you...there is no more tomorrow...

now i know...you threw those temper to tell us you are unwell...

but we didnt catch you hint...

WE ARE SORRY ZAI....really sorrie...

24th May...we brought your clothes and your toys as well as your treats...

we dressed you up..and gave you all we can...

with the holy water to clean you up...

clean your eyes to let you see the path ahead...

clean your nose to let you sniff and smell..hunting for good food..

clean your ears to get rid of the ear infection you have..

clean your hands and legs to give you stronger bones and let you walk further and longer...

clean your heads to reduce your swell and get rid of the fit...

all we can do is pray for you...

all these year....you have been our angel...waiting for us..

waiting for us to reach home...

waiting for us to take you for your stroll...

waiting for us to cook for you....

waiting for us to bath you..

waiting for us to play with you...

waiting for weekends to come...

waiting for u to bring you out....

until this day....you are waiting for us to return from coffee before you dropped your breathe...

thank you boy....thanks for waiting for us....

you are a great warrior....

now...i have to say goodbye...

i believe god have another mission for you...

you are surely an angel god had gave to me...

and you are the best thing god can ever give me....

25th May..i collected your urn...and brought u home...

you are back home once again safe and sound.

R.I.P my boy...odie...heartzai...precious...#1 fav...CEO...

I LOVE YOU FOREVER....

you are my one true love....

thank you for being ours and thank you for all the mischievous acts you did...

thank you for being a good dog...thank you for everything....

today is your 7th day....

please come home...i really miss you very much....

i had never missed someone so much...

i love you zai....i love you very much...

happy belated shiling....

2009-03-24T19:06:00.004+08:00

pictures taken at timbre "old school"...

pretty nice place and cosy....

nice and romantic for a night out

under the bright round moon with your love one...

gotten some party hats and some helium balloons for our dear friend...

with all our wishes and blessing for her on the balloons...

i hope she finds her Mr.Right...

Rhythm of the falling rain..

2009-03-24T18:51:00.003+08:00

listening to the new songs of LEE HOM and came across this song improvise from rhythm of the falling rain...

chun yu le xi guo de ta yang...

a simple song that brings me back to my childhood..

I TOT was RHYTHM OF THE POURING RAIN ..not FALLING...

anyway..nice song...thumbs up...

a simple song that mean a thousands...

ROMEO AND JULIET - i dream of a story about you and me...

2009-03-02T18:14:00.004+08:00

we were both young when i first saw you
i close my eyes and the flashback starts
im standing there on a balcony of summer air

see the lights, see the party the ball gowns
i see you make your way through the crowd
you say hello little did i know
that you were romeo, you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
and i was crying on the staircase
begging you please don’t go,

and i said romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you’ll be the prince and i’ll be the princess
sits a love story baby just say yes

so i sneak out to the garden to see you
we keep quiet because we’re dead if they know
so close your eyes
lets keep this down for a little while

cause you were romeo i was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said stay away from juliet
but you were everything to me
and i was begging you please don’t go

and i said romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
i’ll be waiting all theres left to do is run
you be the prince and i’ll be the princess
sits a love story baby just say yes

romeo save me, don’t try to tell me how it feels
this love is difficult, but its so real
don’t be afraid we’ll make it out of this mess
sits a love story baby just say yes,

Oh, oh I got tired of waiting
wondering if you were ever coming around

my faith in you was fading when i met you on the outskirts of town,
and I said romeo save me i’ve been feeling so alone
i keep waiting for you but you never come
is this in my head, i don’t know what to think
he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring

and said marry me juliet you’ll never have to be alone
i love you and thats all I really know
i talked to your dad
you’ll pick out the white dress
sits a love story baby just say yes

oh, oh, yes
we were still young when i first saw you

BATAM - 14/02/09

2009-02-23T22:51:00.004+08:00

just gotten the pictures from jeremy....

with all the sceneries and beautiful moments spent...

VALENTINES' 2009

2009-02-19T21:32:00.004+08:00

February 14th..

the day being with your closed and loved ones....

I spent mine at BATAM....

with all my loved and closed ones...

busy with my spa..body scrub..massages...my hair wash....

busy with the delicious seafood...snacks...alcohol...

staying away from the commercial and busy street of SINGAPORE....

i had nothing but fun..thou warm and hot....

so CAREFREE...

the guys had stomach ache...food poision...as well as swollen feet...

the girls...as strong as ever....

if only we can stop the time....

2009-02-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

there are so many moments and time we wanna hold.....

time passes fast and quick...

if only i have a gadget to stop the moment....

every moment which bring on smile...

looking back and smile...

the past is filled with happiness and joy....

awaiting ahead are moments of excitement and surprises...

with my family,

with my friends,

with all my beloved ones...

i know my future lies with endless smile and forever happiness....

if we stop the time...

we never know what is ahead ....

what is there awaiting the future that holds...u and mi...

2009-01-15T00:17:00.005+08:00

Cam-whore any time i can...any chance i have...

Footprint in the Sand

2009-01-13T19:08:00.003+08:00

Another Nice Song which rewinds non stop in my heart...

footprint in the sand...

with memories of the sadness being gushed by the wave..

with happiness being keep in the deepest sea....

for the deepest sea to hold the greatest moments and memories anyone can have...

with the breeze by the ocean to calm any disturbed tots and feel...

the sound of the wave to ease the tension you have..

i love the ocean

i love the sea

i love the breeze

and

i love having you (all) in that memories of mine...

WE ♥ TAIWAN II

2009-01-05T20:26:00.014+08:00

*** to be continued.....

WE ♥ TAIWAN

2009-01-05T19:17:00.007+08:00

we LOVE taiwan

a 6 days 5 nights taiwan trip...

with lots of shopping and of cos lots of camwhore session...

hundred of laughters and millions of joy....

i thanks god for all of them in my LIFE....

(mommy...cheryl and cherie...)

this trip would never be that fun without them...

all the silly things we did...all the crazy quarrels we heard...

the bathroom fight within the sisters...

the missing duck on the HSR...

the 150 - 180 speeding taxi...

all these add on to the trip...

with shoes and clothes...

bags and bras...

snacks and games from dan shui...

everything seems so enjoyable...

with all these, it ends the trip of TAIWAN...

2008-12-12T11:30:00.005+08:00

BFF = Best Frens Foreva...

BSF = BEST SISTA FOREVER

......MAMBO JAMBO....

.....ZOUK.....

it has been a real long time since i stepped in ZOUK...

esp a MAMBO JAMBO nite...

OMG...looking at the children now...

i really start to find how old i am...

whaha.....

and recall when i was then their age...

partying my wed nite, ignoring about school the next day...

Xen and me..heading to MAMBO JAMBO with Kevin...

while slagging and waiting for MR KEVIN ZHANG to come...

wen and me spend the evening while cheryl and cherie are out with their friends...

throwing her to me...but she is a dearie...

2 dec babies....20years different...

i love her...and hearing her say she loves me too.....

just warm my heart...

tell everyone beside..that you love them...

a simple word but put my million smiles and warm in their lifes....

christmas is coming ....share this love..with ppl u care for...

I LOVE YOU....LOVE YOU FOREVER....

2008-11-20T18:01:00.003+08:00

The Food Safari 2008

SPHERE very own consumer exhibition.....had lots of jungle fun

wannabe : zookeeper

picture of precious #1....love you..muackies.....

camwhore bitches.....

a boring weekend..cruising around....the boring city.....

Counting down 4 more weeks...and going to real fun and shopping....

WHEE EE WHEE.....

2008-10-20T18:03:00.005+08:00

STOLEN PICS FROM CHERIE HEE

2008-10-20T17:28:00.008+08:00

had a fruitful weekend...

kicking off with ade's bday on a friday nite...

next..badminton with the olds and youngs...

(ouch..big blue black i gotten on my wrist).

then...my beloved kaeden's bday

afterwhich..midnite movie with JASON..(tropic thunder)

pictures of my weekends with my girls...camm whore all day...

October babies bday celebration

2008-10-16T08:52:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OCT's BABIES

Bithday babies boys and girl : Dennis, Ajax, Wai, Song

Lynn and me..the onli pic without any calefare

Girls in the group....btw, wth is kenny doing at the back....

Mich and me......AND....eh..Jeremy...

The MJ cake....group of gamblers...

Happy birthday to all Oct babies....

May the road ahead be smooth and brighter...

May everyday be a happy day with smile and laughter...

God Bless You

beautiful 51th

2008-10-10T15:48:00.005+08:00

I LOVE YOU MOMMY....

HAPPI BIRTHDAY MOMMY!!!

im glad god gave u to me...im glad god pass me on to you...

with every step i take, you watched..you smiled....and you cried.....

with every hilarious quarrel we had...

kiss and make up the next moment....

i realise you are not just a mom but a true closet friend i had....

no one understands me better than you...

no one will be there without complain like you did...

thou your little nags seems pesky and gives me headache...

now living alone...i realise i miss you so much...

miss the noise you made..miss the action you create...

you give me anger but make up with the extra laughter added to my life

i cannot imagine life without you....

you might not be the best daughter in the world...

neither are you the best wifey back then....

but you are definitely the best mother one can have....

i know that you would give me the best you can...

with that little you made...

letting me know that mommy loves me...

and that we might not be superintendently rich...

but we are rich with the simpliest companionship..

the christmas shopping at city hall...

the badminton match we had indoor at our

Blk 114, Bukit Batok West Ave 6 #06-194 Singapore 2365

the teacher and student we alw pretend to be...

me as the teacher and you are my student...

the supermarket game...the doctor and nurse game...the libarian game...

all these just craved great memories in my heart....

thinking back..i realise how wonderful my childhood had been..

you never lay the cane on my tinky winky butt...

never once lay your boney fingers on my alw poutin face when i was bad...

you took great patience to bring me up and guide me with that little bimbo brain you have

i remember biding goodbye to you thru that little tiny window

when you visit me at AH JI place...

everytime i bid goodbye..i just cried....

what is left..is thw back view of you...

to another place you called HOME...
a home without me...a home without love...

im glad all these time had gone passed

once again a happi family....

with our little darling odie added to the family tree...

with the balding uncle edward which i used to call...

all live under one roof...

all with different surnames but living as close as a family....

i realli glad god gave all these to me...as you are the greatest gift i ever had...

I LOVE YOU MOMMY...

CHIVAS Regal Party at RV Swimming Pool

2008-10-06T11:12:00.006+08:00

CHIVAS REGAL PARTY @ RIVER VALLEY SWIMMING POOL

Accompany Roy for Dinner at the Jap Rest at Liang Court Basement.... Ben and me,,,readily dressed for the beach party....

The Only 2 group pics i have for the party....CHEERS to CHIVAS...

I.D.K ...but i look super fierce and weird thou....Beloved Cheryl and me....

my pampered little bitch #2

2008-10-02T11:26:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BELATED MY DEARY..PRECIOUS....PRETTY..BABY GIRL....

CHERIE HEE R.Z

she is just like my little baby sister...

thou we do not have the same surname...we do not live under one roof...

neither do we have the same blood...

i'm glad that god had given you to the "HEE" and "CHEN" family...

a family that links mi and you together...

carrying her when she is so tiny...

looking at how graceful she become....

from a little ugly duckling...to a beautiful swan...

making every weekends to try meetup and doing all the funny crazy things we do...

it jus added smile on to my face...

sleeping over...doing all the household together....(my part time maid)..

driving ard the city without a destination...

luffing ard at stoopid things and silly ppl....

it jus added happy times to my collection...

thanks for being there when i need you....

remember the no of ur mobile whenever im down..and never once you fail me...

im really glad to be ur VI-JIE....ur PLB #1...ur 好姐妹。。。

I LOVE YOU..SISTA...COUSIN...PLB #2...and PLB #3...

Piyo Bday - quack quack - 27th

2008-09-24T16:47:00.006+08:00

pretti 4 babes....Ros...Vi..Joy...Mich - a long time since a pic with them....

i love her.... cheryl hee hee...my best cousin eva...(btw, i have 3 best cousins)

vi..along with the 3 musketeer - Ajax..Joy...Kenny...

the 2 boys seems pretti blur...as the 2 girls...pretti as eva...whahaha

girls power... friends along the way....that last til the end of the road.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PIYO...

Kenny Housewarming...

2008-09-24T16:36:00.005+08:00

** Housewarming Gift....Wii - my fav...Im hooked onto wii....Getting my set of wii ..Whee ee Whee.....
P/S : odie baby is not part of the gift...just being KPO , sniffing and looking around...

** Isn he gorgeous....SO smart looking and so CUTE....ever green pose he had...

** I LOVE HIM....MY NO.1 FAV....

was happily playing wii....but sad on the MJ table...

Lost 350 for 6sets of game...

there goes my set of wii.....

Shall on tonite 4D thou....if Jason's Given no is to strike...

Whee ee WHee.....

ben's bubbly bubbblegum bash

2008-09-24T15:53:00.011+08:00

*** 29th & stepping in the hill of 30..1st 'n' last theme party of the 20's

***Ben the "Baker" and Me "BARBIE DOLL - asia version / new blood"

*** Chris as "Bin Ladin" - awarded best dressed of the NIGHT...

*** roy - Man in "Black"

a party at kaylen's function room...
with many funni "Bs" showing up...
had a great nite with him after he picked me up....
haven had this much of a fun for a long while...
with all the dressed up, all the craps from the guys and of cos the drinking...

CHEERS....

without pumpkin - Day 11th

2008-08-29T18:13:00.004+08:00

counting back from August 18th...
today is the 11th days I call him my friend...

from being that close, I had long forgotten how to be his friend....
used to received his morning call everyday....
receiving his msn "muacks" and "kisses"...with him calling me "my dear"...
having him asking me to cook...and seeing how much he enjoys my cooking..
thou I know..it was not that fantastic...
he make sure he wipe out all that i had made..even thou he is full...

such a fool..that i know all he wants is for me to be happy and smile...
however, the one who wanted me to smile and be happy most...
is the one that took the smile and happiness away....

not wrong to end with..but wrong to begin with...
knowing that it is wrong...i had tried all means to make it right..

trying to make it right...
i do not call him...knowing that i do not know wat to say..
and if anything i say would make him feel better...
trying not to meet him often..knowing that every meeting with him seems like we are getting used being friends...
every meeting comes with a good bye...
and i do not know and wish to say the formal...See you..or Good Bye..as i never know when is the next meetup..

every meet up in the past is called a date...
meeting up now..is called catching up....

11th day without his warm...hugs...kisses...
11th day without having his good nite and sleep tight...
11th day without hearing his calling me "my dear" / "pumpkin" / princess of genting lane (brunei)...
many many petnames i can think of...
11th day without him telling mi about what he wanted to do with his car...
11th day without him asking me if i misses him...

I would like to loudly tell him "I DO" and that i misses everything that he used to tell me...
and thinking back..sometime i used to think its boring...but just listening cos he looks happy talking about...
how excited he is everytime he talks about things he loves and enjoy...
just like a boy...

i misses this boy so much...
the boy i used to call him PUMPKIN...

his "beautiful girl"

2008-08-21T18:43:00.001+08:00

He brought me to this song...
with this song, i knew i had loved again...

Reciting the lyrics again and again, i cant help but tear once again....
with this song that hooked and linked me back to "US".
with you beside me, i listen to this song...
with this song, i felt our love...

i told myself to not listen to this beautiful girl..
simply i cant...for this song just let me think of you...
thinking of you in my heart...
letting me recall the moment spent...
moment where me and you smile so bright...

listening to this song...i started to feel that i have lost you forever...
but you told me not to say forever and never...

but i know...forever you be in my heart..
i hope i would be deeply craved in yours...

with this simple song...with a beautiful story...
a beautiful story...i hope im forever your beautiful girl...

Beautiful girl, wherever you are
I knew when I saw you, you had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again
after a long, long while
I'd love again.
You said hello and I turned to go
But something in your eyes
left my heart beating so
I just knew that I'd love again
after a long, long while I'd love again.

It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find That you were gone.
Whenever you are,
I fear that I might Have lost you forever
like a song in the night
Now that I've loved again
after a long, long while
I've loved again.

It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find That you were gone.

Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you
'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come true
You've made me love again
after a long, long while
In love again
And I'm glad that it's you

Hmm, beautiful girl.

Once Upon A Time....

2008-08-20T16:05:00.002+08:00

once upon a time...
i dream of a future that hold me and u....

once upon a time...
i pray for eternity for our loves to bloom...
from a small bud to a big pretti flower...

once upon a time...
i wish upon a star...to grant my wish come true..

upon the star, i pray...
pray for directions..pray for hopes and pray for dreams..
without dreams...i never imagine being with you would be so beautiful...
beautiful because you are in it...
beautiful because im with you...
beautiful because you gave me love...

staring into your eyes, tells me that i never want to leave you...
looking deep inside, tells me how much i love you...
i choose to turn away not because i do not love you...
its because i could no longer love you like before...

it hurts and break my heart..to having to leave you...
it hurts more when you told me you want me to know you realli love me....
it realli hurt deep inside...that i can feel the sour juice piercing into the wound of my heart...
so hurt till my tears jus flow without a stop...

I really hope that "I REALLY LOVE YOU" was from the bottom of your heart..
and not another phrase to make me feel better...
as my LOVING YOU has always been so pure and true....
keeping you back into my heart...the space which i had it all for you...

just wanna keep tat beautiful love we once hold...so close and tight...
hugging on to that pink round oink oink...to remind me..

we once loved...

love is like a boomerang

2008-08-07T13:20:00.004+08:00

love hooked us since our 2000....
love linked us back during our 2008....
love tied us on our march 22....
love had binds us from then till now and had never stepped out from that heart that spells....
I LOVE YOU...

but...
love seems to had been pulled away....
holding me back from wanting to hug you so much...
showing me that wanting to hold on to you seems so far away...
you seems like miles away from my heart..

once held u so closely...
where i can feel ur breathing...
i can hear ur whisper...
i can feel ur touch...

however...there are some forces that seem to wanna pull mi away from you...
i know that our story will not end with
HAPPILY EVERY AFTER...

and knowing that i truely deeply...love you and would love to see the path ahead of us..
yet so misty..and so impossible....
very much I would wanna let you go...
release you from the arms of mine that wanna hold u so tightly...
but i just simply cant bear too...

i know i have to one day...
with everyday trying to make myself stronger and that i can smile and let u go totally..
giving you back the lifestyle u had lead before i step into your beautiful painting...

it really took mi great courage to alw wanna to show u how happy i am with that ear to ear smile that hang on my face whenever u r around...
for one thing i know...u do add colours on my faces and the smile just twinkles for you...

I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE...
I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU MAKE ME...
I LOVE YOU FOR THE GIVING ME THE DREAMS THAT I PAINTED IN MY MIND...
I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING ME THE CHANCE TO ONCE CALL U MINE...

I LOVE YOU BABY...
I LOVE YOU PUMPKIN...
I LOVE YOU MY DEAR...
LOVE YOU LOTS MY SB...
MY BOYFRIEND/MY MAN/MY GUY...

I LOVE YOU and i am sure i will love you forever....
you just crave that little space in that heart that beats when i see u...
beats faster when i kiss u...beats faster and faster when u hold mi and tell mi you love me...

after giving me the dreams..the hugs...the love..the kisses...and everything that you had given...
for NOW....give me some time to let you go...give me some courage to turn my back away from you.... give me the strength to hold back my tears...

for I know...once i let go...its will spells...

FOREVER...

lovely 131th

2008-07-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

83th to 131th...many happenings good and bad...
neh neh had went to another place..
a place that I can never see, hear and feel her again...
I AM GOING TO MISS HER BADLY...
it then make me realise - to treasure before its gone....

tried calling baby in the morning...
misses him the moment i woke up from my coldcot...
wanting to hear his ever-charming voice the moment i open the eye...

dunno wats wrong with me...
tried calling and its switch off...
with that unease feeling deep inside...
that not so comfortable feel that makes mi feel something is going to happen today...

both pumpkin and donut have been having tension over mini minor trivialling arguements...
was it cos when someone matter and mean something....u tends to oversee and over-read??
time read: 10.50am and its so unusual for him to not be in office...

Did he send papa to airport...
Did he oversleep...
Did he leave his phone at home - at that no reception corner...
Is his phone spoilt til it cant switch on...

so many did, is and if....
just have that bad feel inside...

yeppie...finally he called...
able to hear that everlasting charm..just added extra smile to the lil chicky face...
i do hope this charmer will bring on smile to my everyday....

lovely 83th...

2008-06-13T16:13:00.004+08:00

counting back from 22nd March 2008....
today would be the 83th day being lovingly attached to him....

thou a lil down with the day....
with the lost of my rainbow mobile pouch and a mini hiccups with my external hard disk....
i really do love my day and night...

to sway off with my "爱心" breakfast - 肉棕 from him in the morning...
thou...dumpling was not a HOT, HIT fav of mine...
the bite of it..just add sweetness with the tot of him....
MUACKIES....

down climb when realise my hard disk could not detect...urgh...
my creative work all went down the throat...
the monthly 22nd is coming and my photo-frame with the re-collection of our past just spells a STOP to my surprise to him...

"Dear God,

Please protect the photos in my hard disk...
there are none other but priceless values to me..."

with him across the webby cam....on the other side of the lil island..
he knows of the uphappiness tht was kept in me...
with a lil thin smile and a boring down eye lid...

his crazy action and slapstick actions took on a wider...ear to ear smile...
I LOVE HIM SO MUCHIE....

"Dear God,

Can I add on another priceless precious of mine...
please do not take him away from me too...."

a dark and gloomy world will brighter and sun with him beside...
a cold and stormy season will soon turn to a warmth and cosy day with his cuddles and his sniff....
with this day....

i know i have loved him back den and had never ended the fairy tale...
like he alw say...our story paused and not ended when we "lost" each other in the midst...

he is alw there is my heart..just somewhere which i had placed and search with being "lost".
but im glad i found him and have him back to my story...

a lil story which i call....MY LOVE STORY...

Re: Way back into LOVE.....

2008-04-22T01:08:00.002+08:00

happiness and saddess, a little thin grey line to separate this heaven and hell....
happiness just overtake wat was in and with me...

Rekindling the LOVE and PASSION we once held and hold....
being in his arms....allowing me to know wat protection there is for me...
wat more can i asked for...."onli hoping that it will never ends"

used to hide that little LOVE and PASSION from one....being hidden and shade away from the light....

i can now flare my deary with locked arms and tender hugs.....
making me feels like everything and that im in his heaven....

i really hope for this while to stay..with many little experience that hold us together...
with A measurable whole time spend together....
with 7 and 8 of the year coming up...

i really hope and awaiting for that little season of coming autumn to arrive...
adding on to the brightness and clarity, as of a cut and polished stone.

be happy when you have that held...
with that held of warmth..
any cloudy day would be a sunny day.

Love Story #4

2007-11-04T15:00:00.001+08:00

fairness, right or wrong.

Does all these words applies to LOVE?
To me, there is no fairness when it comes to LOVE.

There can never be fairness when there is 2 parties getting involve.
when its fair to one, it will be unfair to the other.
when one thinks he/she is right, meaning the other is wrong.

LOVE is all a gamble.
you never know whether you win or you lose then you bet.
putting more feeling and emotion = betting your stakes higher.

you might get BIG WINNER or BIG BAD SCAR.
still, there is so many willingly play this game.
betting the stakes, hoping it turns out to be the BIG WINNER.

LOVE and gamble is just a thin line seperation.
you can never control your emotion to one body if you get yourself too much involve.
when loving someone, how will you tell him /her that you hope to get some small rewards to acknowledge small winnings in the process towards finding out whether its a BIG HURT OR BIG WIN.

should there be some small win to encourage anyone that it might be worth a try to work things out.

all these little pamerping and little sweet words does not cost any penny.
however, very few would want to express it and phase it to the other party.
saving on these little words does not help in improving and moving ahead.

yet, it has beome little faults of all humans.
praising your partner could brighten up him/her day.
try to let them know they are important.

they might not be the most impt and forever top piority in your life.
however, for just that instance, all these worth a millions.
give anyone you think important these millions.
continue to spread the millions to the other who you think worth it.

Love Story #3

2007-10-24T23:23:00.000+08:00

peeping at the humming byway of today, lovebirds filling up and covering the whole of it.
People of today express love in a very open and expressive ways.

Letting one another know how importance and the love they are covered with.
Being love is one of the luckiest things that can get.

to be able to shelther love and receive it.
however, all love stories do not come with a "Happily ever-after".

y are girls more emotional and guys being more rational?
there might be some rare species out that who can control well and carrying it out better.
will girls always be at the losing end in the nation/world/civilisation or whatever you want to call it today??

Can any girl take themselves sharing a guy with another?
not awaring he is attached and fall into the trap of LOVE.
and before you know, you are doom into the game of LOVE, with him telling you that he likes you and that you are important.

With him spending more time and giving more attention to you;
however, one particular day in the week will most up-and-coming be her.
how is that day going to start and end?

the mind will be furnish with:
1 - What are they doing now.
2 - Is he thinking of me.
3 - That hand/arms that surround me is busy with another.

OMG, what can be worse then this.
Girls are able to undergo such channels and brave through it.
Is this a training to prepare them for a stormer / braver battle.
Will there be a rainbow after the rain?

so many happy stories follow by sad ones.
world like before, today and future will never be fair for any human beings.

If you want something, shoot for it.
fight for your future, your love, your needs and your want.
Live for yourself, yourself and again yourself.

Man are secondary and not primary in a girls' life.

Love Story #2

2007-10-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

a girl who hopes his man would:

- pamper her when she is upset;
- letting her know she is one of the most important person;
- that she is being missed most of the time;
- telling her wat's keeping you so busy; instead of letting her think that the passion has drifted;
- hug her at time to let her know that this hug is the best comfort she could get;
- a peck on the forehead to fill in the closeness of you and her;
- there is of cos more flavours to add into the receipe above.

however, my guy is not wat i hope he is;
does a libra guy all the same?

my guy has his commitment in life (work);
with many decision making to conclude at work;
brain cells are killed by thousands jus for any conclusion;

my little wans from him seems unreasonable at time;
however, im jus a simple girl who hope to be in any little fairy tale.

i do hope for a happily-ever-after too;
but of cos the process would have to mix with some smooth and rough.
seeing him and that smile is the greatest thing to me.
able to see his actions; his decision, makes mi think im well protected and will be well taken care of.

i do hope this little tot will keep me well mantain for as long as it can.

Love Story #1

2007-10-18T17:30:00.000+08:00

with a little fantasy + a little wonderland = i got him
he might not be the exact drop-dead gorgeous guy; just an extra flavour of smiley face.

From strangers to little lovebirds;
From single to attached;
these little spice added flavours to the current boring life I had.

Love is just something that you can never find the exact words to describe;
however, many words can be used to describe LOVE too.
Simple yet complex + a cup of emotion invloved.

LOVE is a heavy word and can be betrayed at anytime.
there is no insurance to assure that LOVE is forever.
when love is possess; expectation to another increase and tension increase too.

Able to sacrifice for another and giving in without expecting any returns;
that was what I tot Love would be.
but can anyone and everyone but the same?

Seeing his smile is the greatest things, adding some brightness to my stormy and cloudy day.
the comfort that he gives, coule be a warm hug in a cold winter; warmer den any insulator you can ever purchase....

lovebirds are like little kids, staying in a little world of your own;
being coloured in the little world, with other in black and white.
this is a little heaven of us.

however, a heaven of love, comes with not only a party of happiness;
but a bed of sorrows and some packs of smile, along with laughing gases around to add in to the empty space.

in a spilt, words of love can be publish and found in any bookstore;
but how often being shown and proven?

a guy you love, might not be the one you ended up with.
rather; a guy you love would love you sweet memories and keeping the sweetest deep inside, with the ugly one discard.
moving on with the collection of sweet memories and strengthen the bonds that ties.

being with someone you love most; might not be the happiest.
however, knowing that you are alwis top in his list and that nothing can take that away.
with that knowing you are in heaven and he is on earth...

there are uphappiness in every little story;
what's yours???
it might be the slighest and any trivaling matters; as long as its something that will affect you and him,
ITS A BIG PROBLEM...

every big issue started off with a small one...
take tender care to the little one before it turns into a giantantic scar...
but start happi and positive in your heaven...
he might be the one...

and i do hope i had found mine...